To take a break from all the overthinking I've done on here lately, I realized I hadn't had a chance to share how happy it has been to follow through with some things I've implemented in my life this last year. When I came home from working as an au pair in Ireland, I was missing home and family like I never had before. Being an au pair was a wonderful experience I will never forget, but there were many times I felt like I needed to suppress myself. This only made the thought

You say that you're lonely, so listen to me I reveal my presence in ways you can see I'm here in your laugh and the emerald trees My arms wrap you up in the soft summer breeze I've brought you this far and I'll do it again Your fate is the product of my perfect pen So trust this is true, keep me close and near You're my proudest creation, I hold you so dear -6/30/24 a little poem I made today about God's point of view that I wanted to share, just in case you needed to hear so

These past two weeks have admittedly been miserable for me. The harsh realization that no one really cares about a degree, only years of some fancy work experience, threw me into an early life crisis, making me question all the stress and tears I went through. I'm still struggling with this, but I'm trying to be more forgiving of myself and accept the things I cannot control. What I came on here to discuss is what these past few days have shown me in terms of the misplacement

As someone who spends a majority of their days in the clouds, I believe this is something I could speak on credibly. :) Nothing brings me more joy than savoring the little things and doing everything with love. If any of these musings bring you a bit more happiness, then this post has served its purpose. Enjoy. ♡ Lean into what makes you yourself I think in all this focus on self-improvement, we often forget that what we consider to be our "flaws" or eccentricity are actuall

One of my favorite ways to make a person feel comfortable around me is through self-deprecating jokes. I think it's the way I've broken the ice with pretty much anyone I've become friends with. While admittedly they can be pretty funny, it has been very damaging to the way I not only view myself, but the way others view me as well. I don't want people to see me as insecure, unsure, and constantly underselling my value, but if I continue presenting myself this way, it’s no sur

This has always been a hard concept for me to grasp for some reason. I honestly never really knew what forgiveness meant and I still struggle to come to terms with it at times. Thinking back on people who were cruel to me when I didn't deserve it or even thinking back to things that I have done have always made me feel strong emotions. I think about things from my past and wince, or I feel anger, sadness or shame. I wonder how someone could take advantage of my good intention

I had always found affirmations hard for me to connect to because I never really felt any resonance or heart behind them. This finally changed when I discovered Louise Hay's heartfelt and love-filled affirmations, so I wanted to share some of my favorites with you. Unlike the generic "I love myself" type of affirmations, these carry a sincerity that you can feel wash over you upon speaking or even just reading them. I'd like to share some of my favorites with you today, in th

Happy Easter! This time of year holds a special place in my heart. Recently, I came across a beautiful description that perfectly captures the essence of spring while going through my Pinterest feed: "There is something healing about sitting in front of an open window listening to birds and wind chimes and enjoying a natural breeze. It's like the world is telling you to breathe." As a way to honor the season, I wanted to share some of my favorite books and trinkets that help

♡ 1. Spartacus Ballet Suite No. 2: I. Adagio of Spartacus and Phrygia This is a piece from the Spartacus ballet, where Spartacus and Phrygia perform a pas de deux, unaware it marks their final encounter. The composition is remarkably beautiful and passionate, the way it is able to convey love, wistfulness, and sorrow simultaneously. It's truly breathtaking. To me, it's a sunrise in musical form. Just that first minute sounds like the little songbirds you hear at dawn, and th

"To truly know him meant letting go of everything from my past and throwing all my boasting on the garbage heap..." Philippians 3:8 🕊️ Last night, as I prepared to settle into bed, I randomly opened up to this chapter, which prompted reflection on my journey from where I once stood to where I stand now. There was a long period of time where my circumstances would provoke tears of frustration; trapped in a quiet town with little activity, I often felt overwhelmed by anger. Y

My birthday was toward the end of January and I wanted to connect to my lore. Ballet season is in the spring and Christmastime, so I opted to celebrate by instead visiting an art museum and indulging in some wine tasting. I live in the boondocks of California, so the vineyards are conveniently close, but it did require about an hour's drive to reach a museum that had classical art. I ended up going to Stockton's Haggin Museum along with my parents. I spent the most time in t

This topic holds deep sentimental value and always stirs such an intense emotional resonance in me. The strains of Clara and the prince's pas de deux will always bring tears to my eyes (which not many songs do), the waltz of the flowers and the waltz of the snowflakes triggers my fight or flight, and I don't think I will ever look at Ariel from the Little Mermaid or Glinda from the Wizard of Oz without seeing myself. I fondly remember playing the spring fairy in Cinderella, A

I watched a video a day or two ago about a girl's glow up journey and it was depressing. It was also scary, because it reminded me a little of myself - constantly chasing after something that made me a completely different person than who I was in the moment. Even during my proudest moments, I still couldn't be completely happy because there was still something about myself that I felt needed to be tweaked, or as I preferred to put it, "improved." Towards the end, she talks

These past several months have been a struggle for me. Coming home to my simple life again from an eventful year in Sweden and nearing the end of college has brought up a lot of intense emotions for me. The uncertainty of where I would end up and the itch to prove that I am noteworthy led me to things out of needing external love and validation. So this morning I had enough of it. I like to use these cards that give me a message and a bible verse as a sort of foundation to my

My goodness, it sure has been awhile. I've been so busy with my two condensed classes that I felt like I didn't have any time for what I loved. It was awful. So as you can imagine, I am just elated to have those done and out of the way. So now with all this free time, I am back to doing the things that make me happy including writing these little entries! So, expect me to be more active if you even pay attention to this site anymore haha. But for now, I thought I would update

I recently found my camera that I purchased from someone when I was in my senior year of high school and have really been putting it to use now that everything is blossoming and beautiful outside! I didn't have to travel very far at all to take these, in fact I took them all in my front and backyard! The camera isn't the most professional obviously, but I think it still does its job pretty well. :) Two of these pictures are the roses that we grow in my front yard. They're so